"I looked for you, Mathea!" Arvid's face is earnest now, like it had been back when he'd married Eidys. Only older. "But I didn't want to use your names, in case it put you in danger." Mathea ducks her head, unable to look him in the eye any more. The words are like little missiles, each one aimed at her heart. "I had nothing," Arvid goes on, "no money, no home. I joined the crew of the Raven Cloud so I could look for you all over Saldissay. I've been their steersman for three years now." He smiles suddenly. "It's good work. I like it. But all I ever wanted was to find you both."